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Showing posts with label heaven. Show all posts
Showing posts with label heaven. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 02, 2015

No moment of waiting is meaningless



The tradition of Advent was observed formally in my home church growing up, but I never really understood what it was about.  This month, I have been reading up on Advent and am blown away by the depth of the thoughts to ponder.  

The Gospel Coalition wrote the following, "In Advent, Christians embrace the groaning, recognizing it not as hopeless whimpering over the paucity of the present moment but as expectant yearning for the divine banquet Jesus is preparing for us.  In Advent, the church admits, as poet R.S. Thomas puts it, that "the meaning is in the waiting." And what we await is the final Advent to come! Just as the ancient Isrealites awaited the coming of the Messiah in flesh we await the coming of the Messiah in glory.  In Advent, believers confess that the infant who drew His first ragged breath between a virgin's knees has yet to speak His final word." 
(http://www.thegospelcoalition.org/article/why-celebrate-advent)

As I mulled on this thought, I realized that God has placed me in a situation where I must wait.  We have experienced infertility and loss in the last 5 years, and this waiting to see if and how God will add to our family is often excruciating.  In this, I am not assured that all will be right in this world, but the the expectant waiting helps me to understand in the spiritual realm the purpose for waiting and what longing unfulfilled looks like.    

This season is not JUST about what did happen and how God kept His promises, but also about the glorious promise that He will COME AGAIN and my heart is to be captivated by that! How awesome is that?  How we need these kinds of reminders in dark days, with Syria, Lebanon, Turkey, Paris, and terror acts in the USA fresh in our mind!  God has NOT forgotten and He is on His way - SOON!  

This is the message I want to mull over and teach my daughter this year.  She knows the story of Nativity, the meaning, and the depth - very well, but this is a whole other area to explore with her.  It will be meaningful to her because she is the child who often pauses and looks up at the sky, noting..."it looks like Jesus could come back today";  or crying because she can't go to Heaven today;  or will bust out saying " when is Jesus coming back?  I've been waiting a REALLY long time (hilarious...she's only just turned 8)."  And the Lord uses her to reprimand my heart...why am I not so taken with His coming?  Why am I so focused on the here and now? Even she can get taken up with this world and its injustices that are placed upon her, so to refocus our hearts on Jesus' return and the setting of all things right will be a balm to our weary souls.  

A recommendation of the article referenced above, was to list some ways the world is broken as a family, and to talk about how God is already at work redeeming and saving the lost.  Then plan some family activities around the theme of relieving human suffering in your neighborhood - maybe help out at a soup kitchen, or food pantry, a homeless shelter, or handing out Christmas gifts to the needy.  One activity we have planned is to take cookies and cards to community helpers and people working in needed ministries as an encouragement to them.  What can you do this year to show God's love and promote the hope of His return?   

"Advent reminds us to listen for the message God is speaking, even in the waiting." Gospel Coalition

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Losing Grandma...

Today I woke up to the shocking news that my grandma had passed in the night. Last I had heard before I went to bed is that she had gone into the hospital and was dehydrated, but was doing fine.  I found out that actually her cancer (from 23 years ago) had come back and within a few hours of verification of that she passed.

Living farther away has its drawbacks...I didn't get to say goodbye.  My heart is broken by this. However, all she has talked about my entire life is going home to be with Jesus...so I know she is dancing, worshipping, praising, and enjoying sweet reunion with family and friends.  But how we miss her already.

My mind has been rolling through so many memories today -
- Christmas lights - she always had a massive outdoor display
- the doll and lighthouse collections...
- her wonderful, meaningful hugs
- songs and whistling and unique voice
- stories of the "old days"
- her constant fascination with the rapture and the end times and daily praying for Jesus to come
- the house that was always the same.
- extra food always in the fridge to welcome her grandkids
- the same sights, smells, and friendliness
- her love in going the extra mile in loving us
- watching Disney movies as a child at her house
- Cinderella brings HUGE memories back
- when she introduced me to Oswald Chamber - My Utmost for His Highest as a teen and I just didn't understand it then, but this year it has become a life-line.
- without even finishing Jr High, she had learned bible study methods and taught me to read a whole book from the bible at once to get a better view of the whole book.
- how much Sae's heart for Jesus is like Grandma's!
- since I got married (interracial marriage) she added some african american dolls to her collection.
- the many sleepovers throughout the years that I had at her house and all the memories and conversations.



My heart hurts when I realize: 
- I will never be able to call her number and talk with her
- that someone else will live in her home and it will never be the same
- that I wont get one of her awesome hugs and love when I visit my family next
- I won't hear her passion for and encouragement to focus on Jesus & living with realness and not hypocrisy or legalism.

And I know it's just the beginning...we've walked this road of grief in losing our 2 last pregnancies and it never goes away.

This is grief for us - joy for her. These words were some of her favorites and were a huge comfort today.
  1 Corinthians 15:54 - 58

"When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: “Death has been swallowed up in victory.” “Where, O death, is your victory?    Where, O death, is your sting?” The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."